21. senior. new blog. new patty. im trying to find out who i really am. i want to be better. i want to be the person i know i am. God has such a big plan for me and i will not let myself ruin it. i love my friends. i love my family. i am trying hard to be the patty means i was but making sure i stay the person i am. i do not need negativity. i cant say dont judge me because i do not have that power. this is my outlet and you can do what youd like with it. this one is different. i will be different.

Possibilities.

For the past years I was afraid of wanting anything. I was afraid that wanting would lead to trying and trying would lead to failure. But now I find I cant stop wanting.  I want to fly somewhere on first class. I want to travel to Europe on a business trip.  I want to get invited to the white house, I want to get to know the world. I want to surprise myself. I want to be important. I want to be the best person I can be. I want to define myself without having others define me. I want to win and have people be happy for me. I want to lose and get over it. I want to not be afraid of the unknown. I want to be generous and kind-hearted the way people have been with me. I want to interesting and surprising life. Its not that I think ill get all these things. I just want the possibility of getting them. The possibility that things will change. I cant wait. 

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Posted on Tuesday, 21 February

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